A big fear of mine.

I hate being alone, especially in the evening.  If my husband is ever going to be away for the night I pack up myself and the kids and go back to my mom’s house to spend the night.  I know this sounds silly, but I also still run up the stairs (a little slower now, but none the less) from the basement without looking behind me because I know there is someone following me.  There isn’t, I know that, but it is just something that I did as a kid and I still do to this day.

You hear of so many people whose spouse leave them when they are diagnosed with an illness that is debilitating.  It is so disheartening.  You make those vows to each other when you get married, “In sickness and in health, in good times and in bad.”  I can’t imagine how hard it is to see the person that you love so much go through the pain that is involved in whatever disease they are battling.  However, I do know what it is like being on the other side.  This is when your partner needs you the most.

I am so grateful for my husband and he has always been there for me.  I know in the future I might not be able to do things for myself and I will need the help of someone with basic daily needs.  We have had this conversation and he has assured me that he will be there for me.  I believe he will always stand by my side and be there with me through thick and thin.  My prayer is that others with MS or any other debilitating disease will be as lucky as I am and find their companion that will be with them,

“In sickness and in health, in good times and in bad.”     

December 8th, 2007